But that’s okay.
I’m learning to appreciate the blah days, although I’m not totally productive with them. I was trying to figure out why things were so blah. I am feeling a teeny bit stalled out, and then I realized that I have been reading nothing. All my thinking has been very inwardly-focused, like it usually is when my life gets busy.
I’m actually getting excited about getting up and doing a small puja first thing in the morning. It took a while to get used to it, but now I’m finding that it’s a welcome start to my day.
I’ve also been thinking a lot about why finding a singular deity has been such a struggle and realized that I’ve been approaching this all wrong. God is still God, exactly the same as God ever was – immanent, transcendent, omniscient, omnipotent, unfathomable -and will be forever. The difference is the manifestation. I’m coming from praying to one aspect of God, to praying to multiple aspects oh God. My brain is still attempting to find one aspect, when I’m beginning to understand what many can mean.
So even though it has been a kind of blah day, it appears that it was a good one. I’m excited to see what I can learn tomorrow…