I had been avoiding red meat and pork, since my diet is part of my devotional practice that I can control pretty easily on my own.
I’ve been doing great, even when my husband wants to go to barbecue places, and when we go to restaurants where the only thing I can eat is coleslaw. It has been a great source of focus.
Today, though? Not so much. I’ve been having a rough week. I was supposed to meet a friend for lunch, and ended up ordering from the takeout menu instead. I quickly selected something I thought would be safe for me, meats-wise.
It turns out that it’s full of bacon. Rather than avoiding it, I’m eating it, because I’d taken a bite of bacon when I discovered this. I feel like today is an I-need-to-eat-this-accidental-bacon day.
And I don’t think it’s unreasonable to expect a few relapses when adopting a more restrictive habit. I don’t miss beef and pork. I don’t think about them or crave them. But if I’ve paid for a sandwich that has pork in it and I discover that halfway through because I overlooked it on the menu, I won’t waste that sandwich.
I may go all-veg for the rest of the week, though.
(I would also like to get a definite answer from the universe about this path. Yes or no. One or the other. I know that answer isn’t going to come, but it would help a lot.)